Thursday, April 27, 2017


how do you get used to the absence of a person
what do you do when they're gone
and even after they're gone for all this time
they're still gone
how do you cope with the fact that they're not coming back

I don't know I don't know I don't know

because no one's looking
no one's praying for him any more
and he's still not back

what do you do when there's no words to pray
and no reason to plead that he'll stay
when he's already gone

I don't know

it's too dark to see

 for in this hope we were saved; but hope that is seen is no hope at all.
who hopes for what he can already see?

now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen

for we walk by faith not by sight

so we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. 
for what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

for I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you,
plans to give you hope and a future

romans 8:24. hebrews 11:1. 2 corinthians 5:7. 2 corinthians 4:18. jeremiah 19:11.

Saturday, March 11, 2017

a list that you'll probably need

of things to do when you don't like yourself very much

- make cinnamon rolls, or cookies, or hot tea.
- listen to music that is actually happy, but muted happy so it doesn't just feel like nails against the chalkboard of your heart
- take a long shower and feel the hot water and shampoo your hair. be thankful that you can.
- go on a walk, seriously. doesn't matter what time of day.
- try making someone else happy.
- clean. organize. start small. it feels good, promise.
- look at the first and/or last sentence in all your books.
- start writing your flow of thought. maybe it'll turn into something.
- or draw your thoughts. get the bad ones out. make the good ones into something pretty, or just something that means something to you.
- go to sleep.
- make art. preferably watercolors. it doesn't have to be impressive. just art, because you are capable of creating.
- pray. write your prayers out. it has salvaged my prayer life.
- flip through your bible. look at the underlined verses. write them out. speak truth to yourself.

and, in case you forgot, Jesus loves you just as much in this moment as he did in the moment that he chose to endure the suffering and humiliation of the cross for your sake. you are so valuable and loved- fact. no matter what you feel.

[ as seen originally on BURNING YOUTH ]

Friday, February 10, 2017


hey, you're the hispanic one
said the white blond kid,
slinging a backpack roughly over his shoulder

nah, he said, with a glance to the floor
but a proud jut of his jaw
and a little sideways smile
I'm american

don't really know how I'm expecting y'all to respond to this. but, I don't know, this is real, and it matters to me, and I like it. moments that people don't notice are where it's at tbh. also people that people don't notice.